I've had a lot of time to think lately, and I spent that time thinking about my shortcomings. One very critical shortcoming I have come to realize is that I am unbelievably immature, and I don't think before I speak. I really want to correct my behavior. I've tried to seek solutions, and I have realized it really isn't easy at all. It is essential that I correct my behavior or else I will not succeed in the future.

I went on a biking trip this past weekend from Hualien to Taitung, a total of about 200 km. I got really badly sunburnt and now my face is peeling off. It's very unpleasant. I met a lot of nice people in the countryside. They seem  much friendlier than city-dwellers.

Today is 6/12/2013.

I had a big fight with my mom because I got a C in Algebra II. She really made me feel like a piece of garbage, saying how I won't get into any good college. I guess she's right. I also realized why I have such low self-esteem. Whenever I gain even a little bit of confidence, people like her always shoot me down. It's not like I can do anything about it. I just can't wait to go to college far far away from her.

This week's article is strangely coincidental with my situation. Although my mother raised me with a lot of love I can't see why we have become like this. I hope I can study psychology so I can figure out my mother, and stop being affected by what she says.