I have not posted a blog for a while now. I think its because I've been lazy. I will try to make up for the missed weeks with a longer post this time.

Going back to what I just said: I am fully aware that I am very lazy- to a point where it would be harmful to my life. I see people around me working really hard and talking about schoolwork everywhere I go at this school and it seems that they are very stressed. But, I do not feel any type of stress at all. I just try to do whatever is enough to get by. I don't mean that I just want to pass, but I am happy with an "OK" score, such as a "B" in a class, or an 1800, or a 3 or 4 on an AP test. I will never push myself to be great, to be at the top.

I'm still not sure why, but I think its because I don't expect to be great in life. Some people want to go out and make lots of money, be entrepreneurs, businessmen, lawyers, celebrities- basically have an enjoyable life filled with luxury- and who wouldn't? But I am content with the thought that I would be a normal, average Joe. Marry somebody, support a family, live in an average house. Due to this, I think it is a problem with motivation. If I am happy with an average future, then I am only willing to put in an average effort to get an average score to get into an average college.

Or, it could just be because I'm giving myself excuses for being lazy. Maybe I just don't like to work. I just like to be on my computer, sleep, and eat. Maybe not even eat. I've been trying to maintain an exercise schedule to help me with my problem here, but naturally, I don't do a good job maintaining that schedule.

The worst part is that even though I know I'm lazy and I realize its very bad, I don't do anything to correct it. I'm too lazy to correct my laziness.